Help me believe it's not the real me .

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Hey ppl, nv update for like forever . Coz you know, I'm a lazy ass and there's nothing special in my life to write about . EL Oral exam tmr . And Liverpool losing :( What else to write uh ? Hmm .. Nvm ah end it here . K chow

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Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Alrite, now updatin in sch comp lab. Gowri nv come. So far, it's been a fine day. Except PE. Got someone ah, think he so cute n thinks evryone likes him but rly, his attitude lyk shit ! Seriously, his perangai ah, can go fucking die sia. Today hv health check up den the nurse ask if I isap den I say yes den she lyk councelled me for 5 mins -.- But it was fun ah, th whole thing. After finish checkup, we did chemistry test in th holding rm. N now, here I am in th comp lab coz Gowri nv come, heheh. K, thts all. Ciows

Labels: Yes. I failed. But I tried and you didn't see it that way

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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Hey, ppl. Today is not bad, esp after sch but during sch, thts whr the bad things happen. I lost Amin's sun screen n he say I nid to pay him back. How much? He say $10.50. I lyk dun believe sia. Seriously, a sun block cream, $10? But wat else can I do? If I dun pay tht guy bck later he n setan beat me up, I won't noe wat to do alr. Y do I hv to go thru dis bullshit? I can't believe I didn't pick it up when I dropped it, somethin's definitely wrong wif me, haisss. ): After sch, wanted to take chemistry test but damn tht Mrs Chen lah. Not enough test papers den ask me wait for those hu taking th test to finish, den she will mark, go bck to staff rm, print out a copy for me, come bck to th class, I take th test, she will mark when I'm done. Fuck tht, lah. I straight away go out when she told me I will probably go home late. After tht, actually wanted to take 913 to cwp wif Arthen, Josh, Yan n Shah but in th end, we walked thr. We go 7-11 den Josh buy ice-cream. Me, Yan n Shah of cost, nv buy food or drinks lah, we puase rite? -.- We lepak under th blk, Yan keep taking vid of us n Arthen joker sia. We sit thr for half an hour, chit chat, listen music loudly, make random vids n make noise. After Josh finish eating his 2nd ice-cream ( yes, he bought 2 ice-cream n finished it thr n then ) we continue our way to cwp. We stop again at a playground to make summore vids. U guys should try using th 'pause' button on ur camera phone. Record a vid, pause den continue recording again. U can do so many cool things on it. After tht, continue again den when reach cwp, Yan ajak us all go library. We forced Arthen to go wif us, kesian tht guy. We go aso, haven't even found a place to sit n relax, me, Josh n Arthen cabot alr. Coz we wanna watch ICARLY. We love Miranda Cosgrove, well...I do :/ .. But dream on, Riff. U nv deserved to hv a girl coz I nv treated any of them nicely. But if I could oni get a chance, thts all I ask for, a second chance to prove myself. But second chances dun come along all th tym D; Dis world will never be wat I expected...

Labels: I've been told how to live my life and what I'm "supposed" to do with my life. I'm standing up for myself and I say "Fuck you. I'll live MY life the way I want to .

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Monday, August 16, 2010

Ever since my mom came back home today, evrything's gone horribly wrong. Mrs Jeniffer call her up coz I 'didn't pass up my homework'. Wth, I got pass up lah sia. I put at her fave basket in the class n she nv check th basket so she tot I nv pass up. Nv even tell me or anything den suddenly call up my mom, knnbccb. I had to sit down n do my homework for today n my mom sat beside me, watching n staring. She aso say I should stop dreaming abt being a rockstar ): Bcoz of me, my cousins start smoking. Bcoz of me, Faz didn't do well in his previous exams coz I influenced him to play bass. My uncle hates me for doin tht n he nv wans to see my face when we all visit my grandmas hse evry wk. My aunty aso angry wif me coz evry wk I go her hse, lepak in th rm n play guitar all day. Evrything is all bcoz of me but why th fuck does it have to be tht way?! D; I'm falling into a state of very, very deep deppression. I've felt dis way before, I called for help evry single tym. But no one givs a shit abt a useless being lyk me. Why do I always take an innocent soul and giv them th pain tht I'm supposed to feel? I dunnoe wat th hell I have become but it has taken its toll on me n I'm someone who I don't wanna be, someone nobody loves n evrybody hates...

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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Hey, ppl. Today is a Monday n as usual, it sucked pretty badly. Wake up for sahur den mkn very little n now, I regret it. Mornin, meet Kai at bus stop den go sch. Reading period, had to stand up coz no tie. Tht Jeniffer can't handle me anymore, she damn pissed off alr. All classes were normal, boring. Geog, Mdm Lenny nv come so me, Sam, James n As we make noise at our table n carik pasal wif th relief tcher. Art test was postponed...again -.- N after sch I tot wan to go home wif Kai but dunno lah whr tht guy go. Now, I'm at home wif completely nothing to do ): I'll play FIFA 09 later. Yes, I'm aware tht some of u are alr playing FIFA 11 n wondering y I'm still playing 09. It's bcoz my dad very cheapskate, got so much money but still wan simpan. Can buy for me electric guitar alr but he still say wait for report book. K ciows, I wan play game. Nobody wan to layan me in msn ):

Labels: I'm constantly numb to the things around me and it's all thanks to my own actions .

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Hais, Liverpool draw wif Arsenal. Lucky lah Arsenal, Liverpool play wif 10 men oni. N the goal is own goal. But not bad the Liverpool performance, I pray so hard tht next wk Liverpool get 3 points.

Last Updated @ 9:59 AM

Damn, kinda long never post. I wan post now coz I'm bored, I'm waiting for Liverpool match to start. Still got one more hour to wait. So anyway, National Day I wasn't in SG. I go Johor n stay thr for one nite wif my family. N skarang, dah bulan puase. At least I can stop smoking, rite? Today was kinda boring, wake up for sahur den go bck sleep. Wake up, play game...Wat else can I do, seriously? Den Zohor lyk tht, tertido. Arnd 5 my mom woke me up den say we buke puase at Chong Pang. So mandi n siap2. Go Chong Pang Community Club n buke puase over thr, Dianna was thr aso. Nothing much uh. Go home n now, I'm waiting for the Liverpool match to start. I better start drinking coffee if not I'll sleep while watching the game. I miss chatting wif someone, btw. I feel so isolated n alone, seems lyk no one cares abt me anymore, seriously... K ciows

Labels: I don't even know who I am anymore, I'm so angry

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